Someone to lean on

I've been dating for this particular woman for a year and counting and I would like to share my feelings toward her. Surprisingly we met on our last class of MUET being in the same class for almost 15 times. It was our mock speaking test which my class have to pretend taking the test for serious. My turn was up and after I finish mine and on my way to my chair, never to expect, a senior spontaneously asking me of how I do? When life gives you lemon, you make lemonade! I would never expect such acquaintance with her and so did she. She was only expecting of how I do and not the chit chat. But nevertheless we chatted until its her turn for the test and I went back to where I sit waiting for her to finish. Not my proudest moment but I barely holding my urge to pee only thinking should I ask for her number?

With all my tiny bit of courage left in my soul, I without further ado, I went to sit beside her and politely ask for her number. I should have recorded since it was funny to me as well for her for making fun of it. I never regret that moment asking for her number nor do I of this meeting with her. My first message to her was, wishing her luck on her last presentation for business proposal and luckily it was minutes before she started! I couldn't be more happier than knowing she passed with flying colors just because of my wish. I'm flattered big time.

I'm no superman especially on woman. Do you know it is hard to come up on something to talk about as for the record we never knew each other before? It is a disaster! But brilliantly I came up which a rip-off game from truth or dare but only truth is played in this game. Whoever answers wrong will be getting a penalty which was only to make it playable and fun. By that opportunity I ask so many questions about her on what she likes and dislike, her family, her ambition and all. We became close solely on that game only. Rock it baby!

I live in a town called Tanjong Malim and she is from Kota Bharu so we rarely meet and only spend our stories and time through phone and sometimes on skype whenever she is not tired. Then this one night after she graduated, she were in a problem asking about starting to work. I'm not being cocky but every time she is troubled with choices or problem, she will consult me for solution. For I am her alternative perspective on matters involved. She usually go for the long run but I rather be the short cut so we synchronize greatly whenever trouble comes. So this one night she ask for my perspective for the first time and she is currently working as supervisor in Parkson Grand which steadily making her way to the top. Just for the record, I am proud of my beautiful angel.

From Kelantan to Perak will take up to 5 hours at least but she never whine of how far we are. Whining and hoping is 2 different things which whining, she wouldn't want me as her mate and hoping is which hoping if we are at least an hour or two nearer to each other. Me on the other hand, take it as a blessing which fuel a mature relationship. We keep in contact almost all day which is nice. Once a while we will come to see each other and spend our time fully until the end of day. We talked, laughed, and laughed and laughed. We are a crazy couple cause whenever we are together, people would never miss noticing our hysterical laugh. To be blunt, as much as I hate walking, I enjoy window shopping with her. She would go all over the store just to feel the fabric, asking which is better than the other, and feeling irritated by the sales male or female whenever they came to promote their item.

We rarely fights, but when we do, I always thought I was the hot headed person until I met her. She is my tigress. Usually we fights on small matter which what I would label according to my standard. But her standard is way higher so adapting for a year can be surprising. Recently we fought about my foolishness and naive of the matter. She gave me facts nobody can argue. Its the most absolute fact and she is right, not wrong-right. I felt really bad on what I did to her. She on the other hand take matter so seriously its like what i have done to her is done to me back. God I have learnt my lesson the very hard way. When she say she can do it, she will do it. I have to let my tears drop until she is cooled down. So who's hot headed now!?

Nevertheless, I am most grateful to know her and to have her as my girlfriend. Not once in my life I ever regret of her asking me on my mock test and to ask for her number. Its a bold move from me. I am no mister charming so let me savor this moment. And so we are currently dating and counting. I know its not for me to say, but I have the feeling that she is the one and I hope it keeps on like this until we are official for each other. Thanks for all the love and care plus advice on this big boy of yours. I appreciate everything you have sacrifice just for me. Thank you. I love you Adura.

Limit

Does anything ever occur to you that you found yourself a dead end on anything you do? Yeah I think you do. It is where you have to make choices either you just give up or rather break those limit. Lots of people out there broke those limit and achieved greatness. Heck I doubt geniuses should be counted too but you get my point right?

In my case, I never actually break mine. Not that I remember of it though. I never good with sports, musics, girls? I am great with games, I mean video games. Yeah I rock on that but seriously who the fuck cares? Honestly I am interested with this one particular girl. She's obviously not in my league and far from my reach. It is like trying to break world record for me to like her. It is not about my willpower cause I am ready to  make sacrifice even I learnt love the hard way. More to how do you break those limit?

Frankly I am a quitter. Since the day I was born till now I quit on anything I couldn't do shit about it. Where I realized I am already at my limit. I just quit. I gave up too easily without giving an effort about it. I never did found a way of breaking those limit. Just don't know how. One day I am so motivated and here comes the hard part, waiting and hoping and seconds later I was like fuck it I quit. Sucks to be me.

Since you didn't ask, I say I quit

The heck?

So as I was browsing myself through news feed of my facebook and then its always about gangnam here and there. So I was like what the hell is gangnam!? Oh right its another korean stuffs (Not offending anyone here) so like yeah okay whatever you like. And then I found this something about religion view about it. It says here it is strictly prohibited in Islam. So I wiki-ed it and found out nothing. But in my point of view it is some other gang shit going on in Korea.

And I was like, what? Gang shit is old. And it is forbidden in Islam. Not that I protest about it just that where there is no one talking about Pitbull? Every single of his songs have girls in bikini and shit. Even Flo Rida, well  whistle is a nice song cause the whistling is catchy but there is always girl half naked lying sunbathing. 

Not that I like Korea and stuff but I just don't get people anymore. I thought understanding a woman is hard enough. And now this. But just for short notice I'm not arguing with what have been written of what right and what is wrong. Like they say freedom of speech! If you think I'm wrong please do correct me.

A bad driver

Yeah I am and still are. But it goes off as you grow tired of driving but still I am not a good example and a teacher in driving. First of all I am a hot-tempered guy but not really as bad as before where I could break the world because someone made fun of me. Literally! There's one time I got really mad at someone(That is all I can say) and I drove like I was Michael Shumacher! 3 lane and I am in the left, just a little push to the throttle (Just kidding) I could go the most right in just a limited space. I was going like 110kmph or something on rural roads. Not really fast if you ask me. Perhaps. The next one is I was on the highway and it is filled with cars and shit. But maintaining 160kmph isn't really hard cause there's always cars moving slower trying to overtake.

So there this one car high-beaming me cause he thought he can overtake me and fuck off. But hell he is the caused of the traffic moving slow. So soon after car in front of me take the left, I maintain my speed and after 10 seconds (Because my mom is freaked out!) I accelerated my car and I never see it again. Wicked right? For a moment yeah but in the end I shouldn't do that cause it is dangerous to the surrounding.

Always wanted to say this but uhhh bear with it!

If you can outrun me, just go but if you can't, by any means PLEASE don't!


Lastly, never drive recklessly as I was.

Good

There's a saying in Malays that says 'Careful on doing good, Never do bad' (Google translate have much more worse translate than mine) which why I am talking about the good one not the bad one since talking about bad is too mainstream! So why you should be careful on doing good? I myself have been there several of times. From my shallow experience, doing good doesn't really repaid by good. I am a karma believer so they say. It is like when you tried to do good on some person for example this john doe, you would expect he would do the same thing to you. And right there, right over there hope comes to you. Do you know that hope is man best killer either body or soul? Even though it is not really proven by science and all that shit but all I can say hope kills me several times before but hey? You learn from that. So chill the fuck out! But as they said, preventive is the best cure of all problems in this world. 

You prevent that from coming, you are most likely save but heck shit happens every time!

First time you tried something new

Have you guys ever remembered new stuffs you did for the first time? Well pretty much I think I do. That was the time I was like 8, in a convenience store, searching for a drink. Looking up and down in the fridge and I found something interesting rather weird. At first I thought it was sugarcane so without thinking I took it and pay it for a buck(That time drinks were cheap even for a tin). And then I saw the not sugarcane and it says there "Winter melon". So I as like fuck this shit and just gulp the damn drink. Surprisingly it taste like sugarcane but not really. Until now it is still as my favorite whenever I have no idea what to buy. So what's yours?

Starting over!

Shit I have no idea since my last post. Well let start up with a song yeah? Well it is a good song for me. The lyrics were all true! In my opinion alright?

As soon as you're born they make you feel smallBy giving you no time instead of it all'Til the pain is so big you feel nothing at allA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
They hurt you at home and they hit you at schoolThey hate if you're clever and despise a fool'Til you're so **** crazy you can't follow their rulesA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
When they've tortured and scared you for twenty odd yearsThen they expect you to pick a careerWhen you can't really function, you're so full of fearA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
Keep you doped with religion and sex and TVAnd you think you're so clever and classless and freeBut you're still **** peasants as far as I can seeA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
There's room at the top, they're telling you stillBut first you must learn how to smile as you killIf you want to be like all the folks on the hillA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
A working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to beA working class hero is something to be
If you want to be a hero, well, just follow meIf you want to be a hero, well, just follow me